I think we can all agree that 2020 has been a rough year. Major life changes probably happened to just about everyone, whether that means losing a job, being furloughed, having to switch to telework, attending school virtually, or having to work and school at home. Many of us experienced–and are still experiencing–the pain of cancelling family gatherings, missing outings with friends, missing long-anticipated events like senior prom, and potentially having to celebrate the holidays alone. With so much going on, blogging may be the last thing on many of our minds.
Blogging, however, is also a major part of many our lives. It is the way that we find people with similar interests, make friends, think deeply about topics we are passionate about, and maybe even relax, when we’re not busy planning out and writing posts. But blogging now feels very different. At the end of a long day staring at the computer, going online yet again may actually be the last thing anyone wants.
I know I am certainly experiencing screen fatigue. Blogging used to be a way for me to unwind, to feel creative, to connect with others. Now the computer feels less like a friend and more like a chore. I am tired of all the emails and the IMs and the Zoom calls and the video chats. I am tired of staring at a screen and trying to feel like we are making meaningful connections, when, in fact, everything feels more awkward and less personal. I am tired of trying to pretend that we can move our lives online and it will somehow be the same.
It’s hard to feel really invested in blogging right now, when I am tired of my computer. I wish I could recapture the excitement I normally have about sharing a review for a book I loved, or starting a conversation in the comments. But, right now, everything online seems a little overwhelming, and it is hard to keep up. Right now, I really don’t want to look at my computer at all.
One day I hope we all achieve a sense of normalcy again, or at least something closer to it. I know there’s still so much to read and to discover–and so many friends to make and to keep up with! For now, though, I feel rather tired of the internet. And I imagine that I’m not alone.
How have you been doing?